Wednesday, June 22, 2011

A Place to Call Home


Mama Cat wandered to and fro through back yards and broken fences until the time came to give birth.  Having watched the human female for weeks, she knew it was safe to stay and raise her children until the human female considered them a nuisance, and Mama Cat would have to move again.  It was inevitable; all cats knew humans didn’t like them, but for the time being, her and her unborn kits were safe.

Shunned at first by the older Wanderers, Mama Cat soon proved she had the right to remain just as much as they.  The older Wanderers were naturally distrustful.  With hunched backs, they'd hiss and bat sometimes making contact, but she was used to being struck.  Territorial and reluctant, the older Wanderers tried to get Mama Cat to leave, but she refused.  Her only concern was the kittens she carried within.  Standing her ground, they soon realized she was no threat.  The older Wanderers’ defenses melted daily for they understood the feelings of isolation and fear; she was alone and heavy with children.  Childhood memories flitted to the surface in their minds eye soft like a fair weathered breeze.  Never quite able to hold onto them nor reconcile who they were about, the Wanderers pressed closer to Mama Cat while indistinct glimpses of another female from long, long ago whispered soft purrings of love and life lessons in their ears.  The crotchety group of old Wanderers turned into an extended family butting heads, cleaning, purring and warming Mama Cat on cold nights. 

Watching the human female became an obsession with Mama Cat.  She was an odd sort of human and very different.  Every morning she carried fresh food and water out to the shelter.  At night, she’d lay three or four plates of soft food for those who wanted it and checked to make sure the shelter was clean, and sweet smelling. It was no wonder word spread of the human female’s kindness.  Most cats came out of curiosity and rumbling stomachs; they ate and moved on, but others chose to stay, calling it home. 

When the human female came to where the cats rested, she’d talk softly never looking directly in the cat’s eye.  Not the least bit challenging, she appeared to be part cat.  Mama Cat pondered how this was even possible, but came up with no answer.  She’d purr, try to head butt the old Wanderers and bat at sticks in hopes that one of them would take interest and join in. Once on all fours, the human female even stretched out a hand in hopes of touching the oldest of the group.  The long haired gray got up slowly.  He was at least 14 winters and the alpha of the group.  He stretched his hind quarters and approached her extended hand sniffing and licking it.  The decision was made; the human female was accepted into the group.  One by one the other old Wanderers followed suit rubbing against her legs, purring, and some even head butting.   

Mama Cat was not as trusting, but the closer to the birthing she got, the more restless she became.  Mama Cat saw how content the old Wanderers were when the human female played and rubbed them.  She wanted that experience too.  So, one morning at feeding time, Mama Cat decided it was time.  She refused to be a scaredy cat any more.  If all the old Wanderers trusted her, she should too.  As the human female poured fresh water and laid out new food, Mama Cat began winding herself in and between the ankles purring as she went.  Surprised, the human female stopped what she was doing and sat down.  Reaching out one hand, she touched Mama Cat’s head and tickled behind her ears.  Speaking softly to sooth, Mama Cat tilted her head in response and purred.  Somewhere in Mama Cat’s heart, past hurts melted, and she knew she and her kits belonged.

By the next full moon, three beautiful kits--two black, one gray--were born under the Gardenia bush outside the human female's door.  Due to the fact the three were boys and would grow up to be little terrorists, Mama Cat decided to name them Alvin, Simon, and Theodore.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Thank God for Loving Husbands and Mimosas

“No! No! No,” I cried while reaching under the water in hopes of grabbing the silver wedding band that just slipped off my finger. “This can’t be happening. Shit.”

The world ceased to exist. All I could focus on was the fact that I just lost my wedding ring.  Submerging my face, I watched as the ring floated left and then right with the current getting closer and closer to the sea bottom.  I couldn’t move; I didn’t think.

“Russell” I cried.  “My wedding ring, it slipped off.”

He didn’t hear a word I said. Flapping my arms to get his attention, he turned and lifting his mask finned in my direction. “What’s the matter hun?” 

Nothing came out.  My mouth wouldn’t work. Russell noticed my lip quivering and asked more forcefully, “What’s the matter? What happened?”

Still unable to say much of anything I raised my left hand and it dawned on Russell why I was so upset, I’d lost my ring.

“Okay, where did it fall?  Don’t worry. I’ll be right back.”  

The next twenty minutes were slow going.  Russell looked like a bouncing ball, diving and popping back up for air only to dive again.  While he was scouring the sandy bottom, I was in the midst of an anxiety attack and sitting on the edge of the boat.  

“Great Melissa,” I said to myself, “now’s not the time to panic; now’s the time to jump in and help your husband.” But I couldn’t.  

Before leaving the cruise ship, Russell said, “You’ll regret not taking the time to enjoy the crystal clear waters of the Caribbean.  Come on; let’s sign up for the snorkeling excursion. You’ll see stuff you’ve never seen before.  The water’s beautiful. I promise you’ll love it.”

So, I did, but Russell didn’t think my teenage experience with the school of jellyfish would have had such a hold on me as an adult.  He quickly changed his mind after seeing me bug eyed, panicked, and with a death grip on his forearm.   It wasn’t soon before he agreed I’d have more fun watching than participating.  

What felt like an eternity was but a few minutes.  Suddenly, Russell’s head bobbed on the surface, and finning towards the edge of the boat pressed my one-of-a-kind Native American wedding ring into the palm of my hand saying, “Until we get back on the cruise ship, wear it on your middle finger.”
 
Raising my head up and down, I tried to speak but all that came out was a squeaky “Thank you.”

Russell traded his snorkel for a tank and dove until he ran out of air while I sat soaking up the Caribbean sun with my eyes shut and a Mimosa at my lips.

1977... Arundel, Sussex, England


Just having started taking photos, I shot this one in my backyard not knowing what to expect. Normally, I shoot about 30-35 photos before I find one that stands out.  Needless to say when I saw this one, I was elated.   It brought back memories of an old village church I use to visit weekly while studying abroad in Sussex, England in 1977.

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Raised Roman Catholic, I never enjoyed formal church service.  I preferred to sit among the iconic images and breathtaking stained glass windows alone.  It was a two mile walk from campus, down country roads and rolling pasture filled with grazing cows. It was my very own pilgrimage.  Every Wednesday morning about midday, I'd put my boots and hat on; grab a bottle of water and my sunglasses and leave to amble along at whatever pace I chose.  Once I rounded the forked bend in the road and spotted the rambling hedge grove, it was but a few more feet until I was welcomed by age old gravestones and the spirits of those buried there.   My pace quickened, but once I stepped onto the stone walkway, I was free to bask in the spring crocus and daffodils that bordered the path and the tall trees with their new green buds.  Miniature rose bushes grew on trellises lining the side wall.  Come summer, baby pink and yellow blooms would welcome both parishioner and stranger alike.

For now, I was the stranger who came to find peace in a church built out of stone in the 1500's.  The huge antique walnut door with cast iron hinges creaked as I entered the chapel; the pews were stained dark brown, old and worn.  I vacillated towards the middle of the chapel or to the right where the votive candles stood.  Before leaving I would light several and ask God to watch over me, but for now, I sat breathing in the cool air, admiring the chapel's beauty, and wondering who sat in this very pew four hundred years ago.  Everywhere I turned history abounded.  There was a sense of reverence that I felt nowhere else in the world.  Peering at the Stations of the Cross that littered the walls and statues of saints with notes left at their feet, I searched for words, but instead peered above the altar at God.  Mother always said that the eyes were windows to the soul.  I didn't have to say a word; He already knew what lay on my heart.